Once again I'm gonna say it, if you don't understand what I was actually implying... In that bloody previous post of mine...I am tired of all this B.S I just wanna concentrate more in my life and how I want my future to be!...

I'm tired of going through this bloody problem again and again cause it will never bloody end... Like for crying out loud, for all the years I've known you babe, you of all people should understand my life.... Like how I understand yours... Obviously we both are too busy with our own life and problem... We barely even have anytime for one another.... And when we think we do have time shit happen? Seriously I just need time alone... And see where it's  taking me to... Maybe you should explore  outside and find new friends to hang out with... Like who knows he or she might be your true best friend!?... I'm not saying I'm ending the friends ship I'm just saying maybe you need to figure out your kind of friend... Perhaps I'm not very good enough to be your kind of friends... I smoke, I curse, I'm too straight forward, I don't pray and I'm a bitch who would ruin you're life and hurt you with out me knowing... You know, like  I'm thinking forward to the future... Enough of me whining lurh... Like I say and I'll say it again... Im really tired of all judgemental things or words that's coming my way ... Plus I don't wanna keep hurting you and keep making you cry, or even treating you like shit.... I just need time to sober myself up.... And see where it leads us... Who knows by than there'll be someone replacing my place... I mean you have lots of best friend .... So no harm done to hang out with them... Maybe those best friend is your true best friend....